Pushing through the menopause like a queen 😂

I’m in my reflective phase of life.

The one where I accept what I can’t change and change the bits I want to.

Unfortunately the menopause brain fog is creating a situation where I can’t decide what I want, or even who I am 😂😂

I was thinking this morning about things I could have changed instead. You know seeking inner peace and all that, and the brain fog seems to give me a beautiful non stop roller coaster of history repeating.. Jesus the clarity on that level is quite an eye opener. (Sorry nan blasphemy right there…)

I thought about my divorce, what would I change..? Nothing really because it showed me who steps up and recognises a human in distress..

My daughter’s accident.. couldn’t change that, might have stuck to my strict mum vibe a bit stronger, however if I could would have gladly been the one that stepped out on that hideous night.. but a pointless thought, can’t time travel…

Anyway I have decided that I can’t even change the bloody past so not harping on about that either.

Instead I’m learning from it 🙂 like a goldfish where every morning I remember a new thing that I remembered the day before.

So this is what I’ve decided..

Reaching out to people I might have hurt inadvertently whilst in my stupor of trauma over the last five years. That’s a good thing.

Meeting up with people who brought me coffee and sat in a car with me at stupid o’clock when they knew I needed them but didn’t want to be on public show. Because crying in cars is better than in Costa…

Being me, can’t change that despite other peoples opinions.. so sticking with a 52 year old woman who will sing when she can’t hold a note or remember the words, laugh at the most stupid situation and embrace anyone that loves this but won’t budge for people that don’t 🙂

Oh and continuing to utilise the under rated word of “kindness” it’s one of those “nice” words that is pretty non descriptive, but has a whole lot of power when implemented. Whilst also reminding myself that if you stand up for what is right for you that isn’t being “unkind” a lesson I wish I’d learnt earlier.

Bit late for New Year’s resolutions I know.. but that’s the menopause for ya.. I’m always behind on everything ask my boss.. 😂😂😂

Happy new year, is it summer yet?

Keep going ❤️

Below are a few of my favourite pictures just in case I forget.. 😂😂😂